I can't stop Yawning! *sigh...

I figured I better get in here and dust this place off before someone thinks I've run away!! This happens a lot. I get into this funk, this weird feeling of blah. Nothing really makes me happy....And sleep seems to be the best place to be! No, I'm not losing it or anything.....I'm just tired!

So....Let's see:

I returned the heart monitor a few weeks ago. I really think the PVCs I'm having are hormonal, but without that 'friendly little reminder' to go along with it, I'm not exactly sure. I had the monitor for three weeks, and it wasn't until those final days that I finally caught 2 skips. I will get the results when I go back on the 17th of this month......and now that I'm looking at the calendar...that's Friday! Dang it....can't I put this off any longer?? I'm still really undecided about whether or not I want to try surgery again. I have tried meds, and I hate feeling like a sloth everyday! I hate feeling this unmotivated!

..........now that I've gone back and read what I first wrote.......I'm saying Duh to myself.....the funk comes from the meds, Duhhhhhh!!! OK...back to what I was saying......To do, or not to do, that is the question! LMAO and wanting to cry at the same time...Isn't there someone (Like a fairy Godmother) that could just tell me what the right choice would be????

I'm sorry if I'm not making sense.....it's just the way my brain thinks.....Jumps from one thing to another, so I will write as it comes out.....lol......

Had my Cystoscopy this past week, and lived to tell about it. I took a Valium an hour before....and did pretty well considering I hadn't had my heart meds in about 4 days cause I couldn't get the freaking doctors office to call them in over the holiday weekend......*sigh.....back to the cysto.~ So.......the procedure lasted all of about 5 minutes, once they were finally able to get the cath in. I asked the nurse if they wanted me to give them a urine sample when they asked me to first empty my bladder, and they told me No that they'd get a sample when they got in there (in my bladder)........However, she was unable to do this, and did make the comment about how "She'd never not gotten a sample before???'....So they doctor came in and tried again, but was still unsuccessful......? Not to sure what that was all about, but OK?! They filled my bladder full of saline solution and looked around. During this part I told my doctor "Not to talk to me, cause I was going to pretend I wasn't there, lol" I just stared at the ceiling, did my breathing exercises....and kept telling myself it would be over in a minute. It doesn't hurt per say......but it is Really, Really uncomfortable. Like you have to go pee so bad you feel like your bladder's gonna burst. And it burns......but like I said......it's all over before you know it. I did have to go back a few days later to give them a urine sample, but will have to wait on the results. My bladder looked good:) Just some inflammation on the upper side? of it. No big surprise there........

I've been trying to just drink water or milk lately....the Gatorade was getting to be too much....not that I really drink a lot to begin with......but I was trying to get my numbers up. Especially since it's summer and I sweat more. Gatorade does help! But it kills my bladder! I can tell by my urine color, though....that I need something more than water. Oh, if only I could find something that hydrates that didn't contain citric acid. I just can't stress enough that diet controls so much of Interstitial Cystitis...one day I need to come back in here and discuss this more......and tell you all the things you shouldn't eat when you have IC!

I did ask the urologist again about the ovarian vein being a little too big on the cat scan, and he still says it isn't anything to worry about. But to give me peace of mind, he's referred me to an OBGYN. It's just that the more I read about it, the more it makes sense to me.....Or maybe that's the problem, That I want an answer, and that I'm looking to hard? I found a picture of where the vein is located.....in case you were wondering, lol. Looks like it runs right next to the ureter (the part that brings urine from your kidneys down to your bladder) and then past the ovary......and I actually still have this ovary, and it tends to cystic.......looks like it runs next to the ovarian artery, too.....wonder what that has to do with anything? Time will tell! And as you can see, I'm determined to figure this out!

So, all in all, I've just been taking it easy. I've been working on my organizing my medical records and researching things. Trying to put 2 and 2 together, ya know?!

My IBS has been acting up more than normal. My left leg has been cramping up on me. I've been sweating my tail off at night! Which reminds me.....I have a funny picture to share with ya'll later! My breast cyst wasn't too bad this month.....made it kinda nice:) ((I'm thinking last month it burst, or leaked out or something, the whole side of my breast was swollen and tender, not sure what happened, just guessing really.)) And I've been sooooo tired! Taking 4-5 hour naps every afternoon. But I'm here.......I'm still here:)